Welcome to my Narrative Project that is composed of all of my emotions on how I feel about my writing and what it means to me. Ill express so many emotions of life past experiences and action and changes that i kept bodled in for some quite time. I hope when you read these blogs that will show you how much I have change as a writing but this girl gave up on what life was all about, I'm trying my best to do better.
When ever I have written narratives for school I have felt like I was in my own world. I was able to express my feeling about my self or what has happened to me. I really didn't want to write about my past or what happened to me.I was afraid and ashamed that people would look at me different and it would change they way they looked at me or even thought about me. I always let my emotions get the best of me.
I struggle with anxiety disorder but i learn to deal with it and over come it. I learn how to get through and notice that it here its never going to go away its how you work yourself through it, and notice that its there. I always tend to get easily anxious over things but I am learning how to control my emotions. I learn to push forward and strive for the best because that all i really can do is to push forward.
To begin my process of writing the memoir, I first composed a Letter to my Author-Self and Writing Process Round Table. When I completed these two blog assignment I felt different toward my writing. I never was confident in my writing as I do now. It brought out a side of me that I never thought would come out again, she was hidden for so long, but writing these blogs gave me strength and hope again.
As I began to the write the most tense blogs Composing an Emotional Scene With Dialogue and Symbolism and Telling Myself a Different Story: Memoir Counterfactual I began to let my emotions go and to let go of something I kept hidden for so long. I was able to dig deep and express my feeling that I kept hidden. A dark secret that destroyed me completely. But i never gave up hope, it brought out a side of emotional writing that i didn't think I could ever do. I feel more stronger and connected to my writing then I ever have.