Blog post #3, here we are again back at my writing hoping its getting better as weeks go on. I still can't believe I have my own website and I'm writing for the world to see anyway, I had the pleasure of reading A Fable for the Living (Kevin Brockmeier) This story was completely amazing. I'm not gonna lie I actually choked up whiled reading this story. I felt like I was there with her while she was telling it that's how amazing and painful it was to read about. I didn't want the story to end. This story was about a widow woman who wrote a letter to her author-self about her loved one to try and find her self again.
Dear Cindy Lu, Where have you been? It seems like its been forever since we last talked. I'm sorry it took me so long to talk to you again. I was just in fear, afraid to look back in the past on what has occurred. I didn't think I could ever write again. Its been hard since giving up and letting it go, never pushing forward. Every since the death of George seems like everything changed I just drifted away its not you its me. I never thought I would be the same again, didn't think I could go on from something so tragic, watching it happen day after day, the struggle he went through. I couldn't do anything about it nothing at all I kept beating myself up inside . I tried talking to him, crying to him, but nothing worked, he just gave up I prayed everyday he would get better from this epidemic it just got worse. Do you ever think to you self for a second how hard writing is ? What to write about or where to even begin. I do all the time. It gets so frustrating just sitting there mind boggled not knowing what to write. You been at it for hours or even days and nothing just completely nothing. Its the worst feeling in the world, the anxiety , the stress, the gut wrenching feeling inside. I tried so many time to write you but I couldn't I just want to stay in my shell. Just wanted to go away wanted, never go outside or anywhere ever again. This is what I feel when I come to writing. Its like trying to turn the T.V. on with no remote. Complete silence. That's exactly how it feels. Did you ever wonder that? Its so hard, harder then you think, it just kept me so distant from you. It just seemed easier this way to separate. But its time I'm ready, ready to let go and start over again, letting go of the fears of what could have been, and just move on from the past. I can't change the fact that he is no longer here or the hurt I am feeling inside but I know he wouldn't want me to give up on my writing, because its what we used to do together all the time. But writing now I generally am feeling a slight closeness to you. I kept thinking to myself how am I going to go about this how will I succeed in my writing, I have giving up on it ill never be where I wanna be, since he passed away. Then I thought to myself this is it, my time is now and I need help , I need to find that person again. I need to let go and try and live life they way he would want me to its easier said than done. So here it is the steps I will take to prove to you that I'm never turning my back again. First I will always keeps up with my blog posts and any assignments giving. I will always make sure my work is completed on time even if it needs adjustments, time management is the key. Lastly I will always make sure to try and start my work on time and not wait until the last minute, sometimes this gets the best of me but I'm hoping you will help me out. This will give me advantages and will help me practice my unique writing skills. I promise this time around I will be better, I wont stress my self out, I will not give up. I will make sure that I take the time I need and put the effort into writing. I feel more confident now writing to you and expressing my feelings about my writing, I promise to never give up and I wont let you down. I will write more often and simply ask for your advice on things with my writing, please understand that it wasn't intentional I didn't mean to stay so distant. I just simply gave up for a while after George passed but I promise I am going to be back stronger then ever. I hope that one day you can forgive me and we can look past this. Sincerely, Meghan
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The main focus on my blog post #2 is to grab my audience attention on the kind of writer i am and intend to be. It will sow them how it will relate to me and how i will grow with each post. It will help me become a more advised writer in my English Composition I class. I hope will reading my post it will persuade you to create one as well. Below are the following readings i have read to create my Multimodal post.
Why are we creating a website for our English Composition I course? We are creating this website to grow as a writer , to show and express our idenity on what writing means to us. To teach us on how to make meaning of writing and the purpose of writing which is not only going to be viewd by classmates by worldwide.
The Proust Questionnaire
Hello my name is Meghan Ellis, this is my first Blog post for English Comp 1. I am really excited to share with you things about me. This post is based off questions that originated from a French writer Marcel Proust. The questions revel the true identity and nature of ones-self. The questions and my answers will be provided below if you would like to check them out feel free. The Proust Questionnaire. __1.__What is your idea of perfect happiness? My idea of perfect happiness is a healthy lifestyle of routine. Focusing on important things rather than the negative, but live a happy life style you must make sure your happy first because it all comes down to you. __2.__What is your greatest fear? My greatest fear is dying. I know it will eventually come, not sure how or when but I fear it to come everyday. __3.__What is the trait you most deplore in yourself? __4.__What is the trait you most deplore in others? __5.__Which living person do you most admire? I most admire my Mother. With everything that this woman has been through , to losing her parents, my dad, and also my brother 2 years ago. I couldn't imagine what she is going through or what is going through her mind from losing my brother all that i know is she is strong and pushes through each day. But I know deep down inside the pain will always be there the hurt of what could have been done to prevent the death of my brother I admire her for her strength and courage to go on each day. __6.__What is your greatest extravagance? Shopping! I love going out shopping and getting new things I’m like a kid on Christmas! __7.__What is your current state of mind? I honestly don't know what my current state of mind is , it keeps wondering so I really couldn't tell you. __8.__What do you consider the most overrated virtue? I honestly have know idea. __9.__On what occasion do you lie? I rarely lie, but if I had to, I would like to my kids for a good cause if it means well we all tell some white lies here and there. __10.__What do you most dislike about your appearance? I dislike my smile. __11.__Which living person do you most despise? Donald trump. __12.__What is the quality you most like in a man? Someone who can make me laugh, Loyalty especially, and someone who is themselves and not change who they are I don't like fake people. __13.__What is the quality you most like in a woman? Well if i was i guy i would have the same answer to the above question. __14.__Which words or phrases do you most overuse? Follow your heart. __15.__What or who is the greatest love of your life? My children and my fiance are the greatest loves of my life. __16.__When and where were you happiest? When i was on the beach for vacation, I didn't have a care in the world about home and nobody was bothering me because my phone was turned off. __17.__Which talent would you most like to have? I would love to be able to sing. __18.__If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? That i wouldn’t struggle with anxiety or panic attacks on a daily basis they get in they way and sometimes I can”t control to the point where I don’t want to be bothered and i hate that about myself. __19.__What do you consider your greatest achievement? Starting my career and getting my New house. __20.__If you were to die and come back as a person or a thing, what would it be? A butterfly. __21.__Where would you most like to live? I would most live in Florida or Vermont. __22.__What is your most treasured possession? My most treasured possession is my children Aiden and Timmy __23.__What do you regard as the lowest depth of misery? I don't know __24.__What is your favorite occupation? A Pediatric Nurse. __25.__What is your most marked characteristic? It all depends who I am around. __26.__What do you most value in your friends? Someone who is laugh and someone who can make me laugh i hate being around boring people who do absolutely nothing. __27.__Who are your favorite writers? My favorite writer is Jane Austen, I love reading her love stories. Always can get into a love story. __28.__Who is your hero of fiction? I don’t have one __29.__Which historical figure do you most identify with? Don’t really have one i can relate to __30.__Who are your heroes in real life? My heroes are my mother and my father. __31.__What are your favorite names? My favorite names are Kelsey and Mackenzie in a girl names and in boy names Logan and Thomas. __32.__What is it that you most dislike? I most dislike and despise a liar. I hate someone who lies it gets you nowhere you're better off just telling the truth even if its gonna hurt someone. __33.__What is your greatest regret? My greatest regret was no finishing nursing school when I was pregnant with my oldest, but here I am now back at it. __34.__How would you like to die? I would like to die peacefully in my sleep. __35.__What is your motto? My motto would be live every second to the fullest because tomorrow is never promised. |
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